yeah so you've been telling the world. i know oyu needed to tell someone, but didnt need to over react about it. tell them your side of the story yeah? but not mine. i dont see my life being so good and fair compared to yours. you get anything you want, im a whipped as bitch over you. and yet you dont cherish any moments. all you have time for is to either hit me and leave scars or make plans to take revenge. you keep saying you dont get this and you dont get that, and that my exs do. ex does have a reason behind it you know, that's why its called an ex.. i dont love her alright, i dont. i honestly dont. i dont have any feelings for her. and yet you dont believe jack shit i say. all it is to you is jack shit. well youve been holding a grudge against me for ages. hasnt these 4 months mean anything to you at all? if this is not the relationship for you, just let go. be honest, truth hurts you know.
theres that one cunt that you keep talking to, dont you have enough guts to tell him that you dont wanna talk to him? the excuses you give me about him, i believe it. but yet in the end, you always decide to go back to him. if his so good, then go for it. im not stopping you. and yes, it would be possible if you said 'dont you care? why arent you stopping me?' well if you loved me, you wouldnt do it in the first place. and its your life, the choices you make depends on you. not me. if you wanna do it, please go ahead. just dont hide it so it kills me much faster inside.
your life ruined, my life ruined. and your ex didnt pick you up after you dumped him. he didnt try. i picked you up, i never used you once at all. i've had a heart for you, and now, i still do. nothings gonna change. girls always stumble meover. i didnt try after two times, two meant enough. but you, you entered this outragous life of mine. you picked me up after my mistakes. i crawled back to you, even though at times it seems like i was invisible. like an abandoned child wondering on the streets alone without any notice by anyone. you didnt care, you just wanted to express your feelings. you didnt care if you hitted me at the time, you picked up whatever and just had a go at me. you know i wouldnt hit you back, so you took advantage of it. i guess i wasnt the right one for you.
i was scared of you from the start, scared that you might cheat on me for one of my friends or another guy. the guys you started talking to, i had a feeling that something would occur. now, that youre talking to james, he wants to plant my face through the ground because i treated you badly? its not like he can do any better. try carrying your bestfriends backs on your shoulders, your family on your shoulders, and the most loving person on your shoulders. you hold me back from all the times i wanted to shit myself with a drug. either if its smoking or drinking, you hold me back from those druggy parties. i always end up wanting to go, but when i spend it with you, it makes me feels like a happy man.
you cant forgive me enough, i just have to deal with it. i cant keep begging you for what you dont wanna do. and baby, i love you for what you wanna do. do what you gotta do to keep in order that your happiness comes first. i dont want to be one of those jerks on your list that tramps on your heart. i want to be ont he list of those boys who took care and treated your heart like it was the last thing i had to keep in order to survive on earth.
please let me make it up to you, even if youre gonna dump me. i atleast want to make it up to you for all those times that ive screwed up. atleast let me take you out to lunch or something, something that will bring smile to your face. as long as you wanna go for it, im ok. just let me know whenever ok? i love you dearly, my beloving tahnee :) dont ever forget, theres always another oppoturnity in this world for the two of us. i will always be your helping hand when you least expect it. i wil be there when you dont notice, ill be standing right there in the crowd with you, sticking up with you whenever you needed me. my word to you, ill be there. just like mister frog and miss pinky.
